It’s been quite an eventful year, what with the trial and my home move and my bipolar disorder playing up again (causing me to have to be hospitalised for six weeks during the summer).
What can I say? It’s been a struggle at times.
The trial, in particular, was an absolute nightmare to endure. Though I am satisfied with the resolution of that – the evil streak of piss got a sentence of 33 years – it was absolutely harrowing to go through; no wonder I lost it months later.
I still find it hard to talk about. So do other members of my family.
But life goes on. Rather than dwelling on grief and letting anger consume me, Mum would want me to make something of my life and in order to honour her memory that’s what I intend to do – to be the good man that she always wanted me to be.
“Plans, plans, plans… so many lovely plans”
One of the first things I’m going to do is get back into my training in a big way in the new year. That and the jiu-jitsu classes.
I’m also going to buy a mountain bike to help myself get fit.
As many people know, I’ve already undergone quite a big physical transformation since quitting drinking (thanks to The Sinclair Method).
But what I really want to do is challenge myself with the powerlifting even further and get stronger than I’ve ever got.
My new goal with the training is to get up to a bench press of over 130kg, a deadlift of 200kg and a squat around 160kg by this time next year – something that I think is achievable because, although my attendance in the gym has been a bit hit and miss this year (for entirely understandable reasons), I’m already pressing well over 100kg and can currently easily squat over 120kg. My only achilles heel is my deadlift… my current one rep maximum is 150kg, but for my build I should really be able to lift much more.
Diet is the key, I think. That and challenging myself cardiovascularly in order to improve my rep range and get my body fat percentage down even further than it is now. Something that my trainer is already helping me out with with a new “fat-burner” training program that he’s given me.
As for other goals: I think that I want to make a much bigger splash with my social media work and my art in 2018.
It’s taken a while with the blog (and what’s not helped is that I had to go into a form of self-imposed exile and make my blog private whilst everything was going on with the trial in order to avoid unwanted press exposure), but now that I’m back the stats are slowly but surely getting up there and I’m starting to see results by cross-pollinating with things like YouTube, Facebook and Quora. The only thing which I don’t have is a Twitter account. But once the book gets released (Claudia thinks it’s going to be around spring next year) I’ll definitely push things further, I think.
Despite my love/hate relationship with Quora, I actually do quite well on there (becoming one of the most popular writers in the addiction section on there, believe it or not) and my pieces have recently hit the 7,500 views landmark.
The real trick, I think, is to just enjoy what you’re doing.
I always find that when I just let go,be less self-conscious and less concerned about things like stats it makes me a far better writer.
A good example of this is the fact that I seem to inject a lot more humour into my blog than I used to.
Talking of which…
…I’m definitely going to do a lot more cartoons in 2018.
People keep asking me why I haven’t done more art and the fact is, as I said before, this year has just been crazy. My head’s just been too fucked up to concentrate on more than one thing at a time.
But yeah, now that I’m getting nicely settled into my new place and I’m finally getting some calmness back into my life I want to do some more stuff. Perhaps experimenting with Adobe Photoshop by doing some painted versions of some of my pencil drawings from the last year (scroll below)
That would be quite a fun little art project to get in before Christmas, I think, and would quite appeal to my transgressive, Chuck Palahniuk-esque tendencies.
Anyhoo… that just about covers what I want to do in the New Year.
But what about you, dear reader? What resolutions do you have for 2018?